Thus ends my first week at Mozilla

There are not enough words in language to properly describe this week.

I will make the effort to continue writing. In this moment of solitude as I await a pickup from Uncle George, I will put down words that I feel - and I will make a sentence out of each of them.

Energized
Excited
Afraid
Expectant
Trusted
Ownership
Excellence
Manic
Questioning
Vital
Expectations
Confidence
Belonging
Fear
Courage.

I am energized by this place, this company, this organisation that seems to defy all definition. It's not a pure company. It's not a pure non-profit. It's not just a bunch of geeks hanging out (even though there are a lot of geeks here). It's not a startup (depending on how you define that word), but it feels like one. I am excited by the possibilities, listening to Mark and Ryan back at Mozilla Foundation, and feeling like a megaphone as I expand upon their vision and push it forward, telling it to one person after another. Listening to Tim and mrz and following their explicit and extremely meticulous instructions. And Guillermo with his vast, infinite knowledge and passion for the world built at Mozilla. However, this wonder is tempered by fear - I am afraid that I will not be able to meet the expectations that others as well as myself have placed on me, that I have started running so fast that my feet give way under me. The staff is expectant, looking for my help, and I feel trusted. At no other workplace, Ricepaper included, have I ever experienced the level of trust placed in me by the entire organisation.  Mozilla has complete trust in itself and because I have become a part of Mozilla, everyone implicitly trusts me to bring it to the table. I am now part owner of the Mozilla story, and it's mine to write. I take ownership of Toronto, and it's my baby. Within Mozilla, there are bright flashes of light, exhibiting the brilliance of excellence as well as the flicker of manic chaos. Pacing at a thousand miles an hour - sometimes I question and wonder. I have no doubt that we are heading in the right direction, the questions are more about how everything fits together when we are moving so fast. At Desktop Support, we play the vital role of making sure the entire organisation stays running. We fix things, order parts, send out computers, phones, tablets, monitors, mice, keyboards so that the real heroes can do the work. We stay behind late at night to make sure the new hire has their machines ready to work when they come in, and we as a team sigh with regret when things don't work as they should. I am confident in myself and my team that we will succeed in our mission, and I place my trust in the engineers and the leaders of Mozilla that executing the mission statement of Mozilla really will make the web a better and more open place. I want to ensure that as a supporter of open source software, I have a place to belong, a place to call home. I fear that I have found my courage.